Im just typing here to let things out...
Once again I gave "love" another chance and thought things would get serious, Planning to move in and even planning a child!
I thought Im finally good with everything I was somewhat happy...
but nope....finding out the truth hurts, I thought things would change but nope, He left for another girl...
lying to my face saying "its just a break" I cant take it anymore! all these lies lies lies!!!
do they think its not a big deal? like I just get up and walk around like nothing ever happened??!
and whats worse, I dont really have a person who can help me or cheer me up, they're all tired of my crap
and finding out that the more I say the more people I lose, I lost a lot of friends, and now Im annoying family...
For a new years resolution is to get my mouth sewn shut..
I cant hold things in any longer, its been a week? and its killing me, I miss him, my hearts screaming and yet I say no. I know im doing the right thing, but my feelings for him are still there, I know it takes time...i know....
I wish I could just go away....from everything.
Too many things in my mind, but I tell myself everyday Im strong I can do this...*sigh*

I just dont know....I dont know what to say anymore....
good day (night)